I've stated a million times I'm far from perfect but I have become perfidy at trying to get better with each day.
I dedicate myself to everything I do in life as of about 8 months ago it's not about being perfect it's about bettering yourself in my opinion.
When I found my moment of clarity I looked at the big picture, what will it take to make me happy.
So I found a new career path that turned out to be the key to my happiness. Although I'm not 100 percent happy with my new job I very wise man that is not my father but like a father figure told me a few months ago nothing is forever.
I have been catholic my whole life I was in mass 3 times a day until 11th grade when I transferred to public school. So I am not an avid person that goes to church often. But I do wear a rosary around my neck everyday and I do pray often.
I honestly prayed for a change, I just was not happy with my previous employer. I felt in order to be happy by any means I had to get out I did and here I stand 3 weeks strong learning my craft. Sales is sales so I can do that anywhere.
My point is this a Man can not really honestly love you fully unless he loves himself. The last 4 years of my job have burned me out to the point where I couldn't even think. So I couldn't love fully in that time frame. Now the dead weight is gone the world is lifted from my shoulders I can not only love fully but love the right way.
The people that you work with have such an effect on your life you don't even realize it. I was working for someone who planned my life around theirs. Now that I have more free time I can focus on being the best man I can be. I have been reading more writing more have the ability to listen to all my new music in my iPhone. You have to have some work/life balance if you don't you'll be lost and retail will do that to you.